Below are the 5 most recent journal entries recorded in solora27's LiveJournal:

Saturday, April 12th, 2008
8:20 am	ahh life ahhh  life is bigger bigger than you and you are not me- REM never said is so well.  I am in a current funk of trying to get past everything.  My relationship with Scott is over, I am trying to come to terms with how to let go still.  It's not an easy task when you loved your husband, to just turnit off.  I have not been very friendly to him. It hurts too much to see his face, remember his embrace, hear his voice, and know that I am not supposed to love him anymore.  I ache for the days when times were good, when he cared,or when I at least thought he did.  I miss him so much it physically hurts.  But alas, there can be no more hope or tomorrows for us, he is gone forever.  (Comment on this)
Monday, March 24th, 2008
9:59 pm	The Words To hear those words come from my sister in law is unreal.  I had asked if it was cancer, to which she replied, yes. And teh floor fell away.  OMG> for real, is this what is happening?  To our little Cody, my little man before i had my own little man? My Cody. Our Cody. I cannot express to you how I feel for you right now, always an empathizer I am so sad for you, so scared, so worried.   You the bright light, you with your sensitive heart that I always wanted to protect, you.  The worst day of my life was yesterday when I heard those words.  Please somebody tell me I am in a bad dream and its not real, none of this is real.  Oh if I could take your pain away, make it so tomorrow you could wake up and go play like you always do.  I so love you Cody.  Current Mood: sad (Comment on this)
Friday, February 22nd, 2008
2:35 pm	Writer's Block: Let Down Describe a moment when you were let down. View 500 Answers We have two children almost 3 and almost 4, and their little hearts are broken, confused, frustrated.  He had "come back" in NOvember, but  was unwilling to discuss the details of why he was back, or if it was for good etc.  It turns out he wasn't really back at all.  My biggest let down, havign the father of my children walk away from me, and our family.  I don't know as I believe in long term love any more.  I don't know as I believe in anything at all except my gorgeous children.  Truly I still love him, probably always will.  But what can you do except let go and pray for the pain to come to an end.  :)   (Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 7th, 2007
3:29 pm	Mexico Warm waters of blue, how I was made for you.  Tropical Islands to get away, wasting nothign but a lazy day.   I loved Mexico, teh easy anything goes lifestyle, the shopping, the beauty of the culture. I miss that so much, and so desparately need it right now.  A wonderful week of rest and sleep, nothing to do but laze around, sit in the hot tub, eat, drink, be merry.   San Jose Del Cabo was a great time.  A small quaint  town not too far from Cabo San Lucas.  The hotel we stayed in was great with nice beach, a pool, very helpful staff. THe room was overall fine, but the view of the view.  Sometimes when I close my eyes I can picture myself on the balcony of our room, watching the waves crashing into the shore, the peacful sound of the ocean as it rose and fell.  I can still feel the crisp ocean air, see the trees swaying in the breeze.  Going out onto the balcony before the sun rises, sitting in the cool night air, watching the ships in the ocean pass by,  Walking down the beach at sunrise, and while not as spectacular as it could have been had the weather cooperated, it was still breath taking. Driving up the coast on this very bumpy very rustic very somewhat isolated dirt road    (Comment on this)
Monday, August 13th, 2007
1:59 pm	Writer's Block: Ewww What is one food that you refuse to try? Why? Monkey brains, can't see any redeeming value in that! (Comment on this)